i absolutely love your hair! how do you get it like that?
Aww, Thanks! Usually I just wash it, condition it, and twist my hair overnight and then take it out in the morning. Lately though I’ve been rolling my hair with drinking straws to get more spirally curls.
You know how people suddenly have epiphanies about life? I think that just happened to me. It’s 1:43. Well the time’s going forward so it’s kind of 2:43 anyways…I suddenly realized I’m no longer a child. No matter how many episodes of Good Luck Charlie, Victorious, and Rugrats I watch it doesn’t change the fact that I’m nearing 20 and most likely graduating next year (a year early).
I always talk about how college is so stupid and a waste of money but as I’m nearing the end I realize how much I appreciate it. Forget the fact that I have learned so much, this has been a time for me to slowly progress into the expectations of the “Real World” and reflect on the realities of life.
These past two years I’ve realized how unfair the world truly is, the uncertainties about life and death, but that most importantly love is all you really have.
I fear making the wrong decisions and regretting what I do all the time, Robert Frosts’ The Road not taken has been the theme poem to my life but I need to get over that. I’ve been so stagnant because of my fear of growing up and changing but I’m realizing I need to get over that. I’m not a child anymore but that won’t stop me from embracing wonderful aspects of being one. Good bye little Sydney meet the young adult version of yourself.
My candle burns at both ends;
It will not last the night;
But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends-
It gives a lovely light!
I honestly don’t know if I’m strong enough for this. This is such a losing battle for everyone involved. But maybe it’s just because I’m looking at it like that. Whenever I see pictures it breaks my heart. I’m starting to realize that things aren’t going to get easier. But maybe it will. Everyone always says things worth fighting for are never easy. I keep back tracking because I don’t want to let go. I don’t know guess we’ll just have to see how this goes. Let me focus on the less mind boggling things. I need to get up, go to the bank, do homework, and prepare for class later on.